The balance of Two, the structure of 4; Saturn creates a path between the material and spiritual worlds. Travelling this path with purpose creates inner change from physical effort, corporeal consequence from time spent within.
You find judgement here, both positive and negative; you are a tree planted in the soil of your actions, an embodiment of decisions past.
The house you have built does not provide the sanctuary you imagined; the skies you gaze upon as you look through the window are clouded, and the road outside is bereft of visitors. Despite the efforts you have invested in this creation, it does not hold the happiness you seek, and there is little to be gained by remaining here.
Understand that your rejection of this structure, be it physical or emotional, may not be objective. Your next chapter holds a search for meaning and contentment, and at times you may question the wisdom of your departure. Such questions are not productive.
Your fantasies are a thin layer of dusty leaves that covers your path; as the wind disturbs them, the rocky ground of depression is revealed, and progress seems impossible. Moments of emotional clarity are rare, and the knowledge they bring is not welcome.
Perhaps you are an idealist, seeking perfection in parts of your life that cannot provide it; perhaps an imperfect but fulfilling source of happiness has come to an end. You will not solve these problems alone. Seek the perspective of fellow travellers to find a way forward.
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